Let’s set the scene it was 2022, I was ready to invest more than a few hundred dollars into a coaching program. I went big at $3,000 for a group program. This program promised consistent months of high revenue. THIS WAS THE BIGGEST LESSON OF MY ENTREPRENEURSHIP. (see the reframe it’s not a mistake it’s a lesson).
I jumped into a program ignoring my Human Design Authority and looked at it with my mind. My mind made a logical decision to join because of the promise of money. This went against my Aquarian 10H sun, my Projector energy, and why I even began a business.
Instead of improving my business, it sank like the Titanic.
Was it the coach’s fault? No. My success is up to me. I didn’t do everything they said and if I did it was half-hearted.
Now you might be asking—Why the heck would I throw down so much money to not do all the things they said? Because it wasn’t unique to me. It was cookie-cutter. Literally, it was copying + pasting the same tasks no matter what your business was or who you were.
My creativity began to die. I found myself, making my ideas wrong because they went against what this program said to do.
Some examples are:
The profile pictures I wanted to put didn’t fit the neat plain backgrounds that everyone else had. And my soul was screaming because it couldn’t express itself in the smallest way.
I love talking to people but DMing 10+ randoms a day wasn’t aligned for me. It also wasn’t how my opportunities flow to me. Having a 4-line in Human Design it’s working with the network I have.
I wasn’t interested in structuring my business, in the same way, HUNDREDS of other coaches have structured theirs. I knew others were doing the same thing I was doing and it ultimately blended us in together because it was the copying + pasting.
Writing content was the hardest. Prior I was following my Human Design without knowing it. Then learning how someone else did content and getting their content calendar TOTALLY put me in over-analysis paralysis. Eventually, I wasn’t putting any content out, which was way worst.
The hysterical part was I was better off before trying to fit into this box of what I should be doing.
A lot of the messages out there on how to run a business have these 4 things in it.
1.) It’s motivational they are getting you amped up and sometimes it’s really regurgitated motivational speeches.
2.) They are all selling the same strategy but in different ways
3.) They aren’t allowing flow, rest, or magic into their content and expect you to do the same.
4.)Giving this message that if you don’t do it that way you are doing it the wrong way.
Ultimately, you begin to ignore your intuition and your own creativity and making being a business owner miserable. And hitting what I hit ROCK BOTTOM!
You Are Built Differently
It’s exhausting to constantly tell yourself that you are wrong.
You are convincing your intuition that it has no idea what it is talking about. That it has no right to go against the grain.
Causing your intuition to be shut off and leaving you with making decisions from your mind. And honestly, your mind is going to drive you into a CHAOTIC ROCK BOTTOMS!
Rebuilding + Digging Yourself Out
Well, I hit that chaotic rock bottom. I lost all confidence. I sat with the question of whether should I just throw the towel in for months. I burnt out. I was a HOT MESS. My life was a hot mess. ($3,000 to descend into chaos yes, please 🤣)
First, I had to begin accepting myself for where I was. This isn’t settling, don’t confuse the two. I put myself in this position, I was responsible for all the little actions that quantum leaped me in the wrong direction. I can’t find solutions with blame and I can’t find solutions with hating my reality.
Second, accepting my unique gifts and accepting my Human Design again. Putting on my beginner’s mindset. It reminded me who I am, and why I started and provided me with tunnel vision.
Third is sharing my embodiment in true 6th-line fashion anywhere that feels good to me.
Stay tuned for the weekly updates on the Human Design Embodiment as I unravel this mess!
To stand out is to be successful! Get them 🕶️ on and focus on what actually makes you feel good and eliminate anything that doesn’t!
Hope this week was amazing! More is to come!
Lannah Kayla
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